Preface
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Afterword
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p.s. Hey. Sorry, as always in these cases, for the slow loading time. ** Thursday ** Sypha, Hi, James. 'Gone' and 'Wonder Boys' seems like a strange combo, not that I've read 'Wonder Boys', but I did see the movie, not that I remember it. What's-his-butt, the first 'Spiderman', was in it maybe. Thanks for making the goodreads page! ** Kier, Hi! I've seen all of them too even though I'm not so into them either, like I said, so I guess that means I'm into them? Weird. Oh yeah, I'm a million times more into the Freddy movies. Wow, that was really nice day you had on the 13th. I've had the image of you standing on the back of a moving tractor with 'Tractor Rape Chain' playing as a soundtrack since I first saw this comment last night. Literally, it was like when I fell asleep last night the tractor carrying you went into a tunnel, and, when I woke up, you and the tractor exited the other end of the tunnel. 'Resident Evil 4' is amazing! The best game of that series, I think. It's a fave all-timer game of mine too. Favorite game? Hm, probably not one. Maybe one of the 'Zeldas, either 'Majorca's Mask' or 'Windwaker', or 'Conker's Bad Fur Day, or either 'Banjo Kazooie' or 'Banjo Tooie', or ... 'Eternal Darkness'? ** Keaton, Hi. I get that. For some reason 'Tool Box Murders', the original, was like the epitome of that kind of horror film, although I don't remember anything about it Anyway, wow, I'm glad I did that 'Ft13th' post thing 'cos your rhapsody thing was very cool. Still is, mind you. ** _Black_Acrylic, Hi, Ben. Yeah, no, nice idea only, yeah. Yeah, I guess les Bleus won their match too! Filming went really great, thanks. We're already beat from the goodness, but we don't get a day of rest until a week from this coming Wednesday, so yikes. ** Bill, Hi, Bill. I greatly prefer books to eBooks, but I think 80% of what I read now is an e- or a pdf. I want to read the J.A. Tyler, cool, thanks. Cool, cool, cool about the temp and coding combo. I didn't end up seeing Kevin Drumm, sadly. Long story. Gisele went and said he was fantastic. ** Kyler, Hi, Kyler. I watched a few seconds of that Tom McBride doc thing you linked me to. How curious. His face looks really familiar. ** Darren anderson, Hi, Darren! It's cool you have ... oh shit, I'm blanking on his name ... as your avatar. In Zac's and my film-in-progress, there's a photo of him hanging on the wall over a bed during a crucial scene. I'm so happy that you're going to stick around! I've missed you a bunch! Yay for 'fuck it' and for the solar plexus! I've only had the chance to read your new things in an early, swift way because this film project is so consuming, but it's so amazing and even weirdly not weirdly inspiring re: the film, which I can't explain at the moment but will somehow once my brain has some room in it again. Yeah, the poems felt like a series instinctively to me. Beautiful! Your writing is so, so beautiful! Not making sense is cool. I'm always trying to find that spot where the 'not making' and the built in obsession with 'making' that writing has built into it get a kind of conjoined twins at the head thing. No, I haven't read either of those books, and I haven't even heard of them. I'll go google them and find out what they are then probably no doubt try to get them. Thank you, Darren! Tons of love. ** Misanthrope, I was going to say that the lack of big success of Jason's most recent incarnation stopped him like the National Guard, but I just checked and he's due back in theaters next year, so oops. I'll finally write to you today after the rehearsals are over unless ... no, I really will. Give the word on 'The Kite Runner' so I'll know. That title just ... I don't know, sucks. ** HyeMin Kim, Hi, HyeMin-ster! Jason things? Like his mask? That's the first thing that springs to mind as a possible accoutrement. 'Alt lit' exists because every group of writers that seem to have a connection for any notable reason always gets a collective name, I guess in order to allow critics to be lazy when writing about them. Oh, even though I can't do it myself, I totally think genius fiction can be written really fast. I wish I could. I don't know. I think that even though 'Alt Lit' encourages one to generalize about those writers, and even though the shared interest in co-opting social media forms creates a strong resemblance, I read each of them as though existing in a noisy vacuum, and I think any pretending is part of the tone/substructure exploration in the writing, and that the internet as context makes an exploration of that line betwixt real and pretense and betwixt resulting self-deprecation and self as theoretical subject of hype even important to do or something? I don't know. My brain is sleepy this morning. ** Steevee, Hi. Look forward to reading your review. Everyone, please go read Steevee's review of the Iranian film 'MANUSCRIPTS DON’T BURN' over on fandor, which the S. man says 'may be the angriest Iranian film I've ever seen.' ** Robert-nyc, Aw, cool, worship-worthy, sweet, thank you. I haven't said much about Zac's and my film, details-wise, but I will at some point. I am busy, even for me, yikes. Cool about your new work! I'll check out Walt Cessna's magazine, huh, interesting. He's interesting. I hope your company was great company. ** Saturday ** Bill, Hi, B. Oh, you're leaving next week? Time flies. Or seems like it. Very cool about that festival. I read about Heroines of Sound. Some really interesting people playing there, as I recall. Cool. ** Keaton, More posts, very nice. As soon as I have a moment in which I am home and awake at the same time, which I hope will mean this evening, I'll investigate. Everyone, in Keaton's no doubt inaccurate words, More Posts @ Keaton's Dumb Blog. ** David Ehrenstein, Good morning! Glad you enjoyed your free tv! ** HyeMin Kim, Hi. Really glad you liked it. I'm sure it will be great. Wow, 'glas', I forgot about that book, which is really strange. I should revisit it. Oh, wow, yeah, I don't ever think of myself as a father, but I hear that people do have that thought about me. If the shoe fits or something? ** Rewritedept, Hi, buddy. Haven't seen you in a few. Thanks for the kind, blog-centric words to Chris. Look forward to the update, natch. Oh, there it is. Hold on while I read it. Oh, shit, about your mom's job, ugh, I'm sorry, man. That job was really good news, shit. Thanks about the interview. Very, very cool about the posts. I'm so incredibly sorely in need. The blog is about to/in danger of going into an extended rerun period. No, I haven't read that Vice thing. I'm neither pro or con Vice. Filming goes well. The weekend was pretty much all about filming. There are worse things than decent, thank god, so congrats in a way! ** Kier, Hi, K. I've always wanted to make a pop-up book. An artist friend of mine did one as an edition, and she said it is really, really hard and complicated to do. ** Monday ** Bill, Hi, B. No, I never write the escort or slave texts. I do a little bit of copy-editing, light line-editing, and/or shedding of extraneous paragraphs sometimes. So his spiritual connection with my work was a magical coincidence. ** David Ehrenstein, Hi, D. I did indeed get your mail, thank you (!), and just to show you how incredibly far behind I am on my post-making, it will appear here tomorrow. How's that for service. Thank you! ** Kier, Hi, K. I know, the dog one was amazing. That one kind of blew me away and made me envious or something. I like elderberry juice. Wow. I haven't drank that in yonks. Your life there is so kind of like invigorating to hear about for my so-fried brain. Farming museum! Very cool! My weekend was very good. We mostly ran around the beach and corresponding area filming bunkers and the ruins of an old factory with our performer in, out, in front, behind, etc. them. I think we got some really good stuff. Zac's drone camera got into an accident and died, temporarily, I hope, but we got most of what we wanted from it before that happened. Photos! I'm running out the door right now or almost right now, but I'll check them out thoroughly later. Everyone, new, very beautiful farm photos by the great Kier! Wow! ** Steevee, It's true about VANILLE FRAISE, but it's a total coincidence, which, I don't know, maybe gives my work, err, added legitimacy or something, ha ha? Mm, I guess I feel like, based on past experiences with escorts, both as friends and/or boyfriends and as a customer, and due to related studying of the dynamic there, I understand enough to feel like I can work with that dynamic. Because I'm not inside heterosexual desire and have no understanding of the coding and power-exchange there, I wouldn't be able to isolate interesting instances of the kind of mating call for money thing in that case. In the case of the escorts, I don't necessarily feel personal desire for them, but I can imagine that desire enough to play with its manifestations and machinations maybe. ** White tiger, Hi, Math! Wow, is that the video for the new Los Angeles track that Michael announced on FB the other day? I'm excited for new Los Angeles. I love that project. I'll go see your video asap! Great! Everyone, there's this music project called Los Angeles that I really love and have featured on the blog at certain points. It's a project masterminded by the great LA musician Michael Cameron in collaboration with others, including, yay, our own White tiger aka Math! And now WT aka M has made a video for a new Los Angeles track, and even though I haven't had time to watch it yet, it is guaranteed spectacular both sonically and visually, so go over here aka Vimeo and see/hear what I'm talking about. Thank you, and you will thank me, and, more importantly, White term once you do. So awesome! I didn't know that Michael had moved away from LA. Love those aligns! Magick and love back to you! ** Matthew, Hi, M. Yeah, sorry about the Paris thing. I am just completely swamped/consumed by the film project, which is super great but it means the real world is kind of a foreigner to me right now. It will be a killer post, thank you! I read about that exhibition just the other day. I'm going to find what I can find of it online. Awesome! Thank you, sir! ** Keaton, They did have kind of a cracking up thing this month, I think, yeah. All is well here, man. I'm just kind of fried, but in a great way. ** Chris Goode, Chris! Man oh man! It went good in Bretagne. We got all the footage we needed, and the conditions were even better than we had dreamed they would be. Yeah, it's kind of a shame in theory that the escorts day didn't coincidence with your session somehow. Not in the obvious way, either. Cool, glad that, if you had to part ways and means, those guys are on to stuff elsewhere, or those particular guys are. I hope they come back in here. It was nice talking to the two that did. And, well, clearly, fingers extremely crossed that the Warwick powers knew what they were seeing and were fingering the big wallet in the sky of their ... uh, man my brain is cooked today, shit ... (something clever). Let me know. I mean, I'm so hoping. Maybe I can find a way to get to Edinburgh to see your new piece somehow this year. I think that super-exposing thing has to be great, yeah. Totally. Way hopefully. Wait 'til you read my next novel, if you do, or if I get it right. It is scary-scary self-exposing emotionally. Love, love, love! ** Postitbreakup, Hi, Josh. Cool, I'll go check my email! Me diplomatic, ha ha? Happy Tuesday! ** Okay. Before I rush out the door to do a long day of rehearsals for our film's next scene, let me share with you the second horror novella adaptation gif creation I made for Zac, and hopefully for you too in some regard. See you tomorrow.