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TheUnusualSub, 22
I'm an odd sort of duck to find on this website. Christian, conservative, and creative. Oh my!
Some condensed factuals about myself:
I am:
A Christian,
A republican,
Intelligent,
A business man,
A worry wart,
Paranoid,
Unnecessarily complex,
And confusing to all who encounter me
I hope to find:
Violent rapes,
Beatings,
Torture,
Life imprisonment,
Brain damage (or freedom as I call it),
Body damage,
Vegetative state
My interests:
Blacksmithing,
Drawing,
Singing,
Writing,
Pokemon,
Renaissance festivals,
Etc.
My drawbacks:
Both parents are cops,
Only brother is a cop,
Sister studies criminology,
Preachy,
Okay face with glasses,
Food allergies,
Ugly birthmark on leg,
Etc.
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Youngassslave, 18
I have never been with a guy but I want to try to be a slave boy and do anything you want of me and let you do anything you want to me I say if you are my master I have to do what you say no mater what even if it hurts me or you dont spare my life please that would be such a boner.
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Jose, 22
In sufference I rejoy
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analizeme, 20
Master i respectfully request to kneel before you and state my case!
i am a Mexican/American boy who was dealt a bad hand before i even knew the cards. My Father was killed, my Mother abandoned us when we were children, i dropped out of school in the 9th grade, i lived on the streets, in foster homes and in a "gang"
i spent most of my adult life in a cell! i have two strikes already! The next time it's for life. I'm afraid of that! But I'm more afraid of the outside world.
i don't want to go back! i need a Master and the control I've been conditioned to for my whole life!
i'm 135 pounds, 5- 9, 24 waist, hairless Azteca!
My "rap sheet' is long, i was a "wild child", but i see where that will lead me if I continue, either death or jail, i'm afraid, i need a strong Master and the control that will ease my mind!
I hope for good news from you all.
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StraightDisgrace, 24
I'm looking for someone to just take over everything. I am completely format table.
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FggotISOPussySuregy, 23
I have been searching for 2 years to find a husband that wants his pussyboy bottom to get pussy suregery, but remain a boy. I will give a brief synapsis. I am offering "talents" of which I rather talk about in person and I am willing to become a cumdump whore for money and gangbang creampie pornos as a boy with a pussy between his legs. Im not interested in fully transitioning. II WANT TO STAY ON TESTOSTERONE or keep my tiny balls but get a pussy between my legs to get fucked in, I repeat I want to live my life on the streets as a boy with a pussy between his legs.
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tellittotheking, 18
I want to be peed on
I love
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TillDeathDoUsParty, 20
I want to used and abused to death.
I want to be wanted BAD and then killed when you want me as BAD as you can.
I'm not JOKING. People who don't like that I'm doing this MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
I love to stab myself... blood turns me on. Guys who want to use a knife on me front of the queue.
You can take an hour, a night, a day, a week, month, months, but maybe not a year. Anyway you won't me BAD for even a day trust me.
You would need to put me on suicide watch until you kill me unless you're into me suiciding.
Suicide watch is not complicated to arrange, I've been on it 5 times in my young life.
I believe we all have demons who consume us over time. Some are faster than others. Mine was a little faster and consumed me whole.
10/06/2014: No longer available.
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Bunny, 19
Selfish, narcissistic, exhibitionist Asian boy. You know the type--I came to LA in hopes of being a porn star/gogo boy but not quite there yet.
Would love to "audition" for bear/dad/older, pose around like a slut (yerp…lol) and feel all sexy--then be pissed on, shown, exposed, raped, beaten. Yeah, I know…weird right? lol
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Fuckmeharddad, 25
I know this may sound clich�' but to be honest you changed my life. From the moment I saw you I knew you were a gift from God. You constantly shower me with unconditional love and you always understand my shortcomings without criticism. Just looking at you is enough to make me happy. My life is now full of promise, every day is worth looking forward to, and it�s all because of you. You made me become a better person. I never thought I could love someone the way I love you now. I know you hear this all the time, but I want to tell you again and again that I truly love you and my life would never be the same without you. I miss you every day.
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imdark, 18
hi im dark and i like dark .... so dont like me .♥♥ u like i hate you ... im cryz ... very cryz ... donte love me .... dark .... drops
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itsyourtime, 21
i am a slave who can treet a master that can never for get me and offer some money to his master as well so that his master can buy some food to eat so that his master will be strong to treet very good ????
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Rapemyasshole, 21
Get me wired and rape me senseless. u can get away with doing ANYTHING to my ass and cock.
In my current slutty slate, it scares me a lil how much id let u get away with when I'm wired...whether it's dominating rape or much much worse.
U could shock my nipples and cock repeatedly, needles, bees, and anything else u want to use...I'm all urs, too helpless and dazed to stop u. Feeling too slutty to want to.
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boyONfire, 19
slave.
No bb, extreme pain, permanent marking, vomit, scat, some creep tying me up and raping me, and things that would be weird for a GAY male.
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GOLD_PENIS, 24
Laidback skaterdude from Norway trying to earn some extra bruises!
I may not be Fred Flintstone, but I can make your bed Rock!
Hey bro, Im up for pretty much anything, and I love to meet new people and do crazy things and get fucked up!
Lets fly high, fly and fly high, I want to try poppers, I want poppers!
I have the face you can crush and the name you trust!
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destroynipples, 24
i can be anything, i'll be your everything. we can do everything, but we don't have to.
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Plasticdoll, 18
I'm just a piece of plastic which you can misused as cheap piece of shit. is your wish. I'm like a plastic puppet. I suppose any shape that you want. superficial, neon, drug-bitch like the whores from NEN comics. I like the emotionless function of insects, watching people getting abducted by aliens. I dislike sleep, the physical and mental need for ANYTHING, being abducted by aliens, losing my mind, Satan's attitude, getting shot in the head. tied me up and fuck me. dont forgot it or I FUCK YOU UP
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shrinkme, 21
i live with my stepmother
we recently relocated
I wish to become a real slave for 24/7/365
I have very extreme wishes like macrophilia
I want to be shrunk down for real and owned
That is why I am looking for a very, very tall, big man much older than myself
He should wish to shrink a young boy very, very small
and then torture him with tiny weapons
I do mean this seriously
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Pompei, 19
my search is very extreme and i can tell more about it when the right Master find me. basically i am looking for sort of like commitment. i am not related to anything law enforcement, you should not be also.
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Deepthroatfordays, 18
I'm a teenager in a rural area who loves to pick up kinky old men and then let them do whatever they want with me till I finally get what I want, which is their hard cock rammed down my throat till I get a big tasty cumshot blown all through my molecular structure
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slaveboy2012552, 21
been owned before owner died
looking to be owned and abused again and hopefully never be free at tool
i have to stress fisting lover
no mater what is your status i just want an owner who love holes
my holes have no speed limits
my holes have no dead end except the top of my skull
my holes have no road blocks inside that can't be punched out of your way
my holes have no muscles that can't be torn or teeth and tongue that can't be removed
my holes r best when slippery with my blood
i know none of this is realistic or practical unless ....
i know when you do that to me i will die
i know i cannot simply vanish without ruining your life with fear or prison unless ....
.... we both give up everything to have it
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ilike2sit, 22
24/7/365 as a sex slave and for use by you Master and to be used as a sex object on your website and where you have it showing to as many people and Masters as you wanted to in the most sadistic and brutal fashion and I know it would be FOR EVER with a REAL LEGAL CONTRACT, signed by me where I fully agree and submit and commit my whole life to you Master, NO WAY OUT, NO WAY POSSIBLE WHATSOEVER. If we go further and arrange this I would prove how much I mean everything I have said to you and if you tell me to do something you want in order for me to prove it then I could even send you my scanned photo card my driving licence, and card, addressed bank statements etc etc etc for you to have as a hold over me to potentially blackmail me and force me to never back down or try to go back on my word and if I ever did you would destroy my life with my family by humiliation through my photos I have sent you because really, it is the worst fear for anybody to ever find out about this what I do in life, I have not told anyone EVER and have been doing this on the secret side of life for 10 years since 12 years old, nobody knows, everybody thinks I am straight and totally opposite to this, this is a side nobody apart from the world of BDSM have ever seen in me, SO YOU COULD USE THAT IF WE AGREE AND REALLY WANT TO GO AHEAD WITH IT and once agreed then BLACKMAIL like that to my family would seriously ruin my whole life anyway as it stands. You would truly humiliate my entire life and break my spirit, it would LITERALLY be destroyed from the inside and once I am with you and it is time to end my life as it is now, I fully understand and realise that there can not be any ties or connection to it at all so you would need to send photos and videos anyway to my family once in your dungeon so that when the reality and extreme pain and regret kicks in, then I would have nothing at all to go back for, you would break my character and destroy my spirit and everything that I ever felt for and dignity and embarrassment about in life before. THIS WOULD BE REALITY AND NEVER JUST A FANTASY OR FORM OF ROLE PLAY, .... I would mean and fully understand every single important clause and thing in the contract and what it involves and I really know there would be NO WAY OUT EVER FOR ME, 24/7/365 CAPTIVITY, PERMANENT, NO ESCAPE EVER I would send you everything you may need or want if we agree and if you want in an email, over 200 photos of me being used as a gay sex slave, these have never ever been seen by anyone in my normal life, this really will break me from the inside out but this would be what fate intended for this life all along, I was born to be be destroyed, used, abused, owned, sold, raped, violently tortured and publicly humiliated and to be treat like the lowest ever piece of cunt imaginable AND this really would be FOR REAL, 24/7/365 you my permanent sadistic and evil Master where you have me there in your dungeon, literally forced and chained permanently and treat like a sex slave and pain pig whilst filled and pumped full of spunk and piss and where it is to be recorded on video and cameras and for you to have the legal permission to sell or distribute the photos and videos anywhere you wanted and where you would own the right to it all, NOT ME, ... I would be worthless and this is to be DRASTICALLY life changing and soul destroying for me & send videos to my EX GIRLFRIENDS WHO DON'T KNOW what I DO AT ALL OR ANYTHING AT ALL etc regardless, not to mention being GAY with it all too, NONE OF THEM HAVE ANY IDEA and this would change EVERYTHING FOR EVER and I WOULD BE YOUR PERMANENT COLLARED, TATTOOED AND BARCODED SLAVE FOR REAL, ..... THIS REALLY WOULD BE IT if we agree and if we REALLY DO DECIDE TOGETHER that this is the way it should be. NO WAY OUT EVER !!!
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Heartless, 20
i go by the name of Curt. i'm here to give you an erection and evil thoughts and make you think about torturing me and use that to fuel my self hatred which is massive
i am by NO MEANS selling myself into slavery because i want to. that's right, SELLING. if you pay off my debts (family, psychiatrist, hospital, friends, drug dealer) you own me forever
do i look like one of your friends? NO! i dont give a shit about your problem
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doe-eyed, 20
“Im okay Im okay now.
But you really need to listen to me
'cause im telling you the truth
I mean this im okay
Trust me...
Im not okay
...Well okay im not okay.
Im not o-f cking-kay”
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p.s. Hey. ** Bill, Hi, Bill. Awesome about the piece/performance. As always, I'll hope for any recorded evidence. Paul Prudence, yes, huh, hold on. *Googling* Oh, yes, I do know his work a bit, and I've been meaning to get to know it better. Anyway, congrats! You're finally headed all the way home. Nice long, productive trip, though. I hope the voyage itself was the epitome of smoothness. See any crap films rendered less crap by your captivity along the way? ** David Ehrenstein, Merci to you! A taller, equally blah looking but up-to-date new building, I suppose. Is that Tower Records shell still sitting there with some half-assed business stuck inside? ** Nicki, Hi. Thanks a lot for the kind, apt attention to Damien's fiction! Speaking of, your fiction as shetland pony? Wow, that's an image. Huh, interesting, about that site. Back when I used to look at yaoi and guro sites a lot, I was initially confounded to realize that women formed the majority of the makers and contributors. Everything is so interesting. Thramsay? I have never heard that term before. What a curious concoction of a term. Okay, well, I will certainly go google the shit out of that word and get my imagination wet in that new world. Ha ha, always happy to see someone else who thought 'Prometheus' was mostly nada. Semi-colons are the hardest punctuation for me. I'm so not inherently inclined to use it. It's like pulling out my own teeth when I do. Anyway, very, very interesting. I'll go become initially knowledgeable about this Thramsay in a bit. ** Postitbreakup, Hi, Josh. Oh, shit, you wanted it in a writers workshop post? Well, Damien's writing was excellent enough that it never occurred to me to ask the fine people here to be its surgeons, if that helps. I'm too rushy this morning to give his piece the workshop treatment off the top of my head, but I'll try to think carefully and write something up in the next day or so. Dude, you did so awesome by giving Damien and us the gift of his writing, don't sweat it. Sad about the last dinner. What did you eat? Very excellent crit of Damien's piece, by the way. Wonderful to get to read your thinking. ** Kier, Hi, K. Yeah, it's weird to remember when Christian Slater was cool for a bit. I guess he's in 'Nymphomaniac'? If so, I guess that's 'cool', so maybe he's making a comeback. No, I've only had one ltd. ed. book of poems translated into Norwegian and published there, which I never even saw a copy of, and that's it so far. Norway is the Scandinavian country that my books have never been able to crack. Wow! That VK thing. It's so beautiful and mysterious and beautiful. Thank you, thank you! Can I share it? Everyone, go over here, which is the site run/maintained by the great artist and d.l. Kier Cooke Sandvik, and look at the thing/entry called VK 'cos it's stunning. Thank you incredibly kindly, my hero! Love from me! Wait, my t-shirt size? That's not creepy. Um, wow, Medium, I guess. You've got something for me? Oh, man, thank you, whatever it is! You're so the best! ** Keaton, Oh, I think it means just responding to the writing that has been contextualized within a workshop knowing that the writer is looking for a response that will help him or her improve said writing as opposed to responding to writing when you don't know if the writer gives a shit about what you think or not, or something. Iow, you responded correctly, I think. I like that word 'brewing' for some reason. It's kind of really soft but with nice, semi-rigid edges or something. ** Sypha, Hi. You can type on Nooks? I've never seen a Nook. Interesting. Lifesize duck figurines? Wait, the -ine means not life-size, right? ** Damien Ark, Hi, Damien! Thank you, man! Yeah, I kind of spaced out or missed signals or something and didn't know that thew piece was to be a workshop post. I apologize for that, but, really, it's such a sharp, pretty impeccable piece of work that I imagine you would have gotten mostly praise rather than problem pointing-out if I had. Like I told Postit, I'm in a speedy mode this morning 'cos I have real world stuff I need to do, but I'll write out my more detailed thoughts about your piece soon. For now, it's just terrific. You're one of those born writer types who have the instincts of a god. ** Torn porter, Hey! Oh, shit, you're in the States! Did I fuck up my chance to see you due to the film madness? How's Florida? I've only been in the panhandle part. I hope Ratty feels instantly better and can join you there. Send her my very best wishes. You're making your movie, or about to? High five. Tell me much more. Things are great here. I've had a short break from the film that concludes today. Weldon Kees, interesting. I haven't read Kees in a really long time, but I thought he was pretty great. Why do you ask? Big hug and double cheeks kiss from France! ** Steevee, Ugh, sorry for the pain accompanying your transition from the hard stuff to the soft stuff. I hope you don't suffer too much, or, well, hopefully not at all somehow, between now and when your dental surgeon hopefully fixes that. ** _Black_Acrylic, Hi, Ben. I didn't see the Holland game. I did dip in and out of a live blog report on the match. I feel bad for Mexico, but I am happy Holland moved forward. I never look at Twitter or, well, only very here and there, but Raymond Pettibon's feed is so great. The guy has so sussed the form. ** Chris Dankland, Hi, Chris! Thanks so much for feeding back at Damien! My coffee is behaving strangely like decaf this morning, but, otherwise, things are good. How's your morning? What's up? ** Rewritedept, My weekend was okay. It rained and rained. I got some work done. I got a little wet, not unpleasantly. I saw some stuff. It was good. I haven't tried Christian Fitness yet, no. I got waylaid. I will today. The new Boris is nice, don't get me wrong. I think it's maybe their best in a while. I did see the announcement of the new TM/Kp book. I am, of course, excited like you. Hope your Monday rules. ** Okay. It's the last day of the month, so the blog gets overrun by slaves today, like clockwork. Pick and choose or be fully within however you choose to respond to their influx. See you tomorrow.
TheUnusualSub, 22
I'm an odd sort of duck to find on this website. Christian, conservative, and creative. Oh my!
Some condensed factuals about myself:
I am:
A Christian,
A republican,
Intelligent,
A business man,
A worry wart,
Paranoid,
Unnecessarily complex,
And confusing to all who encounter me
I hope to find:
Violent rapes,
Beatings,
Torture,
Life imprisonment,
Brain damage (or freedom as I call it),
Body damage,
Vegetative state
My interests:
Blacksmithing,
Drawing,
Singing,
Writing,
Pokemon,
Renaissance festivals,
Etc.
My drawbacks:
Both parents are cops,
Only brother is a cop,
Sister studies criminology,
Preachy,
Okay face with glasses,
Food allergies,
Ugly birthmark on leg,
Etc.
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Youngassslave, 18
I have never been with a guy but I want to try to be a slave boy and do anything you want of me and let you do anything you want to me I say if you are my master I have to do what you say no mater what even if it hurts me or you dont spare my life please that would be such a boner.
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Jose, 22
In sufference I rejoy
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analizeme, 20
Master i respectfully request to kneel before you and state my case!
i am a Mexican/American boy who was dealt a bad hand before i even knew the cards. My Father was killed, my Mother abandoned us when we were children, i dropped out of school in the 9th grade, i lived on the streets, in foster homes and in a "gang"
i spent most of my adult life in a cell! i have two strikes already! The next time it's for life. I'm afraid of that! But I'm more afraid of the outside world.
i don't want to go back! i need a Master and the control I've been conditioned to for my whole life!
i'm 135 pounds, 5- 9, 24 waist, hairless Azteca!
My "rap sheet' is long, i was a "wild child", but i see where that will lead me if I continue, either death or jail, i'm afraid, i need a strong Master and the control that will ease my mind!
I hope for good news from you all.
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StraightDisgrace, 24
I'm looking for someone to just take over everything. I am completely format table.
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FggotISOPussySuregy, 23
I have been searching for 2 years to find a husband that wants his pussyboy bottom to get pussy suregery, but remain a boy. I will give a brief synapsis. I am offering "talents" of which I rather talk about in person and I am willing to become a cumdump whore for money and gangbang creampie pornos as a boy with a pussy between his legs. Im not interested in fully transitioning. II WANT TO STAY ON TESTOSTERONE or keep my tiny balls but get a pussy between my legs to get fucked in, I repeat I want to live my life on the streets as a boy with a pussy between his legs.
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tellittotheking, 18
I want to be peed on
I love
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TillDeathDoUsParty, 20
I want to used and abused to death.
I want to be wanted BAD and then killed when you want me as BAD as you can.
I'm not JOKING. People who don't like that I'm doing this MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
I love to stab myself... blood turns me on. Guys who want to use a knife on me front of the queue.
You can take an hour, a night, a day, a week, month, months, but maybe not a year. Anyway you won't me BAD for even a day trust me.
You would need to put me on suicide watch until you kill me unless you're into me suiciding.
Suicide watch is not complicated to arrange, I've been on it 5 times in my young life.
I believe we all have demons who consume us over time. Some are faster than others. Mine was a little faster and consumed me whole.
10/06/2014: No longer available.
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Bunny, 19
Selfish, narcissistic, exhibitionist Asian boy. You know the type--I came to LA in hopes of being a porn star/gogo boy but not quite there yet.
Would love to "audition" for bear/dad/older, pose around like a slut (yerp…lol) and feel all sexy--then be pissed on, shown, exposed, raped, beaten. Yeah, I know…weird right? lol
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Fuckmeharddad, 25
I know this may sound clich�' but to be honest you changed my life. From the moment I saw you I knew you were a gift from God. You constantly shower me with unconditional love and you always understand my shortcomings without criticism. Just looking at you is enough to make me happy. My life is now full of promise, every day is worth looking forward to, and it�s all because of you. You made me become a better person. I never thought I could love someone the way I love you now. I know you hear this all the time, but I want to tell you again and again that I truly love you and my life would never be the same without you. I miss you every day.
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imdark, 18
hi im dark and i like dark .... so dont like me .♥♥ u like i hate you ... im cryz ... very cryz ... donte love me .... dark .... drops
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itsyourtime, 21
i am a slave who can treet a master that can never for get me and offer some money to his master as well so that his master can buy some food to eat so that his master will be strong to treet very good ????
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Rapemyasshole, 21
Get me wired and rape me senseless. u can get away with doing ANYTHING to my ass and cock.
In my current slutty slate, it scares me a lil how much id let u get away with when I'm wired...whether it's dominating rape or much much worse.
U could shock my nipples and cock repeatedly, needles, bees, and anything else u want to use...I'm all urs, too helpless and dazed to stop u. Feeling too slutty to want to.
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boyONfire, 19
slave.
No bb, extreme pain, permanent marking, vomit, scat, some creep tying me up and raping me, and things that would be weird for a GAY male.
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GOLD_PENIS, 24
Laidback skaterdude from Norway trying to earn some extra bruises!
I may not be Fred Flintstone, but I can make your bed Rock!
Hey bro, Im up for pretty much anything, and I love to meet new people and do crazy things and get fucked up!
Lets fly high, fly and fly high, I want to try poppers, I want poppers!
I have the face you can crush and the name you trust!
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destroynipples, 24
i can be anything, i'll be your everything. we can do everything, but we don't have to.
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Plasticdoll, 18
I'm just a piece of plastic which you can misused as cheap piece of shit. is your wish. I'm like a plastic puppet. I suppose any shape that you want. superficial, neon, drug-bitch like the whores from NEN comics. I like the emotionless function of insects, watching people getting abducted by aliens. I dislike sleep, the physical and mental need for ANYTHING, being abducted by aliens, losing my mind, Satan's attitude, getting shot in the head. tied me up and fuck me. dont forgot it or I FUCK YOU UP
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shrinkme, 21
i live with my stepmother
we recently relocated
I wish to become a real slave for 24/7/365
I have very extreme wishes like macrophilia
I want to be shrunk down for real and owned
That is why I am looking for a very, very tall, big man much older than myself
He should wish to shrink a young boy very, very small
and then torture him with tiny weapons
I do mean this seriously
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Pompei, 19
my search is very extreme and i can tell more about it when the right Master find me. basically i am looking for sort of like commitment. i am not related to anything law enforcement, you should not be also.
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Deepthroatfordays, 18
I'm a teenager in a rural area who loves to pick up kinky old men and then let them do whatever they want with me till I finally get what I want, which is their hard cock rammed down my throat till I get a big tasty cumshot blown all through my molecular structure
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slaveboy2012552, 21
been owned before owner died
looking to be owned and abused again and hopefully never be free at tool
i have to stress fisting lover
no mater what is your status i just want an owner who love holes
my holes have no speed limits
my holes have no dead end except the top of my skull
my holes have no road blocks inside that can't be punched out of your way
my holes have no muscles that can't be torn or teeth and tongue that can't be removed
my holes r best when slippery with my blood
i know none of this is realistic or practical unless ....
i know when you do that to me i will die
i know i cannot simply vanish without ruining your life with fear or prison unless ....
.... we both give up everything to have it
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ilike2sit, 22
24/7/365 as a sex slave and for use by you Master and to be used as a sex object on your website and where you have it showing to as many people and Masters as you wanted to in the most sadistic and brutal fashion and I know it would be FOR EVER with a REAL LEGAL CONTRACT, signed by me where I fully agree and submit and commit my whole life to you Master, NO WAY OUT, NO WAY POSSIBLE WHATSOEVER. If we go further and arrange this I would prove how much I mean everything I have said to you and if you tell me to do something you want in order for me to prove it then I could even send you my scanned photo card my driving licence, and card, addressed bank statements etc etc etc for you to have as a hold over me to potentially blackmail me and force me to never back down or try to go back on my word and if I ever did you would destroy my life with my family by humiliation through my photos I have sent you because really, it is the worst fear for anybody to ever find out about this what I do in life, I have not told anyone EVER and have been doing this on the secret side of life for 10 years since 12 years old, nobody knows, everybody thinks I am straight and totally opposite to this, this is a side nobody apart from the world of BDSM have ever seen in me, SO YOU COULD USE THAT IF WE AGREE AND REALLY WANT TO GO AHEAD WITH IT and once agreed then BLACKMAIL like that to my family would seriously ruin my whole life anyway as it stands. You would truly humiliate my entire life and break my spirit, it would LITERALLY be destroyed from the inside and once I am with you and it is time to end my life as it is now, I fully understand and realise that there can not be any ties or connection to it at all so you would need to send photos and videos anyway to my family once in your dungeon so that when the reality and extreme pain and regret kicks in, then I would have nothing at all to go back for, you would break my character and destroy my spirit and everything that I ever felt for and dignity and embarrassment about in life before. THIS WOULD BE REALITY AND NEVER JUST A FANTASY OR FORM OF ROLE PLAY, .... I would mean and fully understand every single important clause and thing in the contract and what it involves and I really know there would be NO WAY OUT EVER FOR ME, 24/7/365 CAPTIVITY, PERMANENT, NO ESCAPE EVER I would send you everything you may need or want if we agree and if you want in an email, over 200 photos of me being used as a gay sex slave, these have never ever been seen by anyone in my normal life, this really will break me from the inside out but this would be what fate intended for this life all along, I was born to be be destroyed, used, abused, owned, sold, raped, violently tortured and publicly humiliated and to be treat like the lowest ever piece of cunt imaginable AND this really would be FOR REAL, 24/7/365 you my permanent sadistic and evil Master where you have me there in your dungeon, literally forced and chained permanently and treat like a sex slave and pain pig whilst filled and pumped full of spunk and piss and where it is to be recorded on video and cameras and for you to have the legal permission to sell or distribute the photos and videos anywhere you wanted and where you would own the right to it all, NOT ME, ... I would be worthless and this is to be DRASTICALLY life changing and soul destroying for me & send videos to my EX GIRLFRIENDS WHO DON'T KNOW what I DO AT ALL OR ANYTHING AT ALL etc regardless, not to mention being GAY with it all too, NONE OF THEM HAVE ANY IDEA and this would change EVERYTHING FOR EVER and I WOULD BE YOUR PERMANENT COLLARED, TATTOOED AND BARCODED SLAVE FOR REAL, ..... THIS REALLY WOULD BE IT if we agree and if we REALLY DO DECIDE TOGETHER that this is the way it should be. NO WAY OUT EVER !!!
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Heartless, 20
i go by the name of Curt. i'm here to give you an erection and evil thoughts and make you think about torturing me and use that to fuel my self hatred which is massive
i am by NO MEANS selling myself into slavery because i want to. that's right, SELLING. if you pay off my debts (family, psychiatrist, hospital, friends, drug dealer) you own me forever
do i look like one of your friends? NO! i dont give a shit about your problem
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doe-eyed, 20
“Im okay Im okay now.
But you really need to listen to me
'cause im telling you the truth
I mean this im okay
Trust me...
Im not okay
...Well okay im not okay.
Im not o-f cking-kay”
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p.s. Hey. ** Bill, Hi, Bill. Awesome about the piece/performance. As always, I'll hope for any recorded evidence. Paul Prudence, yes, huh, hold on. *Googling* Oh, yes, I do know his work a bit, and I've been meaning to get to know it better. Anyway, congrats! You're finally headed all the way home. Nice long, productive trip, though. I hope the voyage itself was the epitome of smoothness. See any crap films rendered less crap by your captivity along the way? ** David Ehrenstein, Merci to you! A taller, equally blah looking but up-to-date new building, I suppose. Is that Tower Records shell still sitting there with some half-assed business stuck inside? ** Nicki, Hi. Thanks a lot for the kind, apt attention to Damien's fiction! Speaking of, your fiction as shetland pony? Wow, that's an image. Huh, interesting, about that site. Back when I used to look at yaoi and guro sites a lot, I was initially confounded to realize that women formed the majority of the makers and contributors. Everything is so interesting. Thramsay? I have never heard that term before. What a curious concoction of a term. Okay, well, I will certainly go google the shit out of that word and get my imagination wet in that new world. Ha ha, always happy to see someone else who thought 'Prometheus' was mostly nada. Semi-colons are the hardest punctuation for me. I'm so not inherently inclined to use it. It's like pulling out my own teeth when I do. Anyway, very, very interesting. I'll go become initially knowledgeable about this Thramsay in a bit. ** Postitbreakup, Hi, Josh. Oh, shit, you wanted it in a writers workshop post? Well, Damien's writing was excellent enough that it never occurred to me to ask the fine people here to be its surgeons, if that helps. I'm too rushy this morning to give his piece the workshop treatment off the top of my head, but I'll try to think carefully and write something up in the next day or so. Dude, you did so awesome by giving Damien and us the gift of his writing, don't sweat it. Sad about the last dinner. What did you eat? Very excellent crit of Damien's piece, by the way. Wonderful to get to read your thinking. ** Kier, Hi, K. Yeah, it's weird to remember when Christian Slater was cool for a bit. I guess he's in 'Nymphomaniac'? If so, I guess that's 'cool', so maybe he's making a comeback. No, I've only had one ltd. ed. book of poems translated into Norwegian and published there, which I never even saw a copy of, and that's it so far. Norway is the Scandinavian country that my books have never been able to crack. Wow! That VK thing. It's so beautiful and mysterious and beautiful. Thank you, thank you! Can I share it? Everyone, go over here, which is the site run/maintained by the great artist and d.l. Kier Cooke Sandvik, and look at the thing/entry called VK 'cos it's stunning. Thank you incredibly kindly, my hero! Love from me! Wait, my t-shirt size? That's not creepy. Um, wow, Medium, I guess. You've got something for me? Oh, man, thank you, whatever it is! You're so the best! ** Keaton, Oh, I think it means just responding to the writing that has been contextualized within a workshop knowing that the writer is looking for a response that will help him or her improve said writing as opposed to responding to writing when you don't know if the writer gives a shit about what you think or not, or something. Iow, you responded correctly, I think. I like that word 'brewing' for some reason. It's kind of really soft but with nice, semi-rigid edges or something. ** Sypha, Hi. You can type on Nooks? I've never seen a Nook. Interesting. Lifesize duck figurines? Wait, the -ine means not life-size, right? ** Damien Ark, Hi, Damien! Thank you, man! Yeah, I kind of spaced out or missed signals or something and didn't know that thew piece was to be a workshop post. I apologize for that, but, really, it's such a sharp, pretty impeccable piece of work that I imagine you would have gotten mostly praise rather than problem pointing-out if I had. Like I told Postit, I'm in a speedy mode this morning 'cos I have real world stuff I need to do, but I'll write out my more detailed thoughts about your piece soon. For now, it's just terrific. You're one of those born writer types who have the instincts of a god. ** Torn porter, Hey! Oh, shit, you're in the States! Did I fuck up my chance to see you due to the film madness? How's Florida? I've only been in the panhandle part. I hope Ratty feels instantly better and can join you there. Send her my very best wishes. You're making your movie, or about to? High five. Tell me much more. Things are great here. I've had a short break from the film that concludes today. Weldon Kees, interesting. I haven't read Kees in a really long time, but I thought he was pretty great. Why do you ask? Big hug and double cheeks kiss from France! ** Steevee, Ugh, sorry for the pain accompanying your transition from the hard stuff to the soft stuff. I hope you don't suffer too much, or, well, hopefully not at all somehow, between now and when your dental surgeon hopefully fixes that. ** _Black_Acrylic, Hi, Ben. I didn't see the Holland game. I did dip in and out of a live blog report on the match. I feel bad for Mexico, but I am happy Holland moved forward. I never look at Twitter or, well, only very here and there, but Raymond Pettibon's feed is so great. The guy has so sussed the form. ** Chris Dankland, Hi, Chris! Thanks so much for feeding back at Damien! My coffee is behaving strangely like decaf this morning, but, otherwise, things are good. How's your morning? What's up? ** Rewritedept, My weekend was okay. It rained and rained. I got some work done. I got a little wet, not unpleasantly. I saw some stuff. It was good. I haven't tried Christian Fitness yet, no. I got waylaid. I will today. The new Boris is nice, don't get me wrong. I think it's maybe their best in a while. I did see the announcement of the new TM/Kp book. I am, of course, excited like you. Hope your Monday rules. ** Okay. It's the last day of the month, so the blog gets overrun by slaves today, like clockwork. Pick and choose or be fully within however you choose to respond to their influx. See you tomorrow.